Monday, November 01, 2021

The Weekend

I started writing the initial post about how manage a situation like this if it unfortunately happens to you, but I didn't get very far before I had to stop. It's still way, way too hard. So I'm going to limp along for a little while until I feel like I can write it properly. I'm really hoping it will help some of you. 

I woke up without a headache for the first time in three weeks on Sunday. That was good. And I thought the weekend was going to be terrible, since it was the first weekend Eli 20.4 was back in the UK, but it wasn't. It was slightly less then terrible, and I'll take that for now. 

I went over to the house and gave out Halloween candy. Gloria always decorated the yard with all kinds of Halloween items (the witches stocking sticking up from the garden has always been my favorite), and it was so nice to see happy kids getting loads of candy. Over fifty costumes for the Costume Count. 

I couldn't describe what I've been feeling until last Friday, when I suddenly knew exactly how to explain. There's a Bee Gees song (incredibly) titled "New York Mining Disaster 1941." It's actually about Welsh miners trapped in a cave-in, and it's incredibly poignant. One of the miners is talking to another one, both buried beneath the ground, and he says, "Do you know what it's like on the outside?"

That's the feeling. There's another world out there that somehow I'm not a part of right now. I'm in this new, different world, where "normal" doesn't have any meaning anymore. 

I'm going to make a concerted effort to not talk about this too much here. It may take me a week or so, but besides what I hope will be the helpful posts, I'm going to make a conscious effort to write about lighter things. 

Just hang in there with me. 

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