Eli 23.6
I was talking to Eli 23.6 today and he said something that I'll always remember.
He said people who lose parents at a young age (he was 19) all have one thing in common: they are better able to feel joy than the people around them.
I didn't understand.
He said going through such a profound sense of loss opens you up and makes you more human. Yes, you feel sadness more fully, but you experience joy more fully, too.
It's a terrible price to pay, he said, but he's happy in a way he never was before because he can better feel happiness. He also gained a sense that the world is beautiful, even though horrible things happen in that world.
My description isn't nearly as eloquent as his explanation.
It's a reminder that being his dad opened me up in almost the same way. I feel more than I could ever feel before, in every direction.
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