The Solo
I went to Manhattan by myself today for the first time.
C is in Montreal. We've gone almost everywhere together since we got to Queens, including several trips to the gym we joined (walk 15m-subway 20m-walk 15m). I've gone on several solo walking excursions in Queen's, but never to Manhattan.
I freaked out a bit.
It's a strange feeling to be in a city with millions of people and be so alone. Usually, I crave being alone (introversion), but it's different when you're in a big new city. If anything happened to me, there's no one I could call. If something really bad happened, how long would it take C to be notified? Foolish, unlikely thoughts, but they ran rampant as I walked to the subway.
I did remember to put Cs contact information in both my phone and my backpack, and also took $20 with me in case my phone was lost (so I had money to come back on the subway).
It was all silly and everything was fine, but I had significant anxiety until I swam at the pool. There are just so many people in Manhattan. It's so crowded and so loud that it's easy to feel intimidated.
I'm investigating another gym on the Upper East Side, which would have much lower vehicle/foot traffic. It would better suit me, so hopefully it works out. Plus I'd get to ride the ferry.
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