What if?
I've realized I have a what if problem.
It's not something I do on purpose, but my brain will drift to past moments in my life and wonder what would have happened if I'd made a different decision or made a little more effort or been more patient or or or or...
Not kidding, I can go all the way back to grade school doing this. I think it's a form of fretting, actually, and I've done it for years.
The funny thing is sometimes I do it thinking about Eli 24.8, too, which is utterly goofy, because he has the best and most satisfying life anyone could imagine.
I'm trying to stay conscious of this and stop myself when it starts, which is a challenge. But I'm trying.
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